When a loved one leaves our life, we want to quickly move on to the next feel good. Escape the pain. But we all know to well, that is mostly not how it works. Even if we mentally comprehend, they are not gone, but in spirit again, we need to process the event emotionally. Similar feelings may arise when we let go of relationships. But the shocking event of death tends to stay with us a lifetime. And we can explore layer after layer the depth of that. How do I know? At the age of 9, me and my mother and her friend had a car accident.